Happy Pride month🏳️🌈🏳️🌈🏳️🌈! So sad this year I also can’t join pride in Shanghai, because of COVID-19, I still can’t entry to China until now. But I wish one day or next year I can join pride in Europe. And this one of my dream and I will be so happy, with a rainbow flag in my cheeks haha.
In this blog, I will share with you about when the first time I realized I’m into a woman and about LGBTQ+ in my home country.
So when I realized I’m lesbian?
I realized I’m lesbian in August or September 2015, when I’m 26 years old. Hmm yeah I know this is too late to realize it. And how I realized it? Maybe some of you also have the same experienced as me. I coincidently bought DVD lesbian Thailand movie “YES OR NO”, I don’t know this DVD about a lesbian movie. And after I watched I suddenly thinking and asking myself “Am I lesbian? Am I into a woman?”. And I throwback in my past life, when I’m in junior high school in my first year, I like my senior, And in the senior high school, in the university, and in the office I also have people that caught my intention, but keep not realize it. Yeah yeah, looks stupid haha. Because of a lack of information about LGBT at that time in my home country until I watched “YES OR NO”.
How LGBT in my home country? Is there many pro and contra in here?
Hmm… Pro and Contra? I think in my home country too many peoples have contra with LGBT. Because LGBT still taboos in Asia. Especially in my country. But since 2016, so many peoples brave to come out and speak up about our rights. We also HUMAN, we have the right to live in peace in our home country like the others and be ourselves. But the government still not approve of us, and even there is one police and he is gay. When his leader knows about him, he got fired from his job. So sad and tragic, but this is the reality we need to face in here. And in 2019, there is a rumor, if see there is LGBT people or couple in my home country. They will get punishment and said LGBT the same as adultery. When I knew this news, I’m so sad, angry, anxious, and feel not safe in my home country at that time.
And because being lesbian is so difficult in my home country, and this became one of my reason for living abroad. And because of that, I moved to China, where I can be myself in here, without people judging me and feel safer. I tried so hard to get a job in China, and as you know nothing is impossible in this world, as long as you brave enough to dream, and never give up to make it come true.
And I just want to tell you about wrong statements about LGBT around the world. Many peoples thinking LGBT is related to drugs, alcohol, free sex, criminal, and etc. But this is a really wrong statement about LGBT, because of our circle is so small, so they only saw bad things that TV or news exposed. They didn’t see the other good things, many LGBT peoples also have a good carrier, success in their young age, have their own company, and make many achievements. We are the same as you all, we have the right to live in peace and to be a success in our life. Love is Love. Peace✌️❤️❤️❤️🏳️🌈🏳️🌈🏳️🌈.